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3 more days, 2 more papers.

Time to start filling in my social calendar!

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My thoughts are disjointed and I can't be bothered to link them, so I shall just leave everything in point form. (Honestly, I'm supposed to be thinking about glycolysis, not blogging.)

1. People form impressions based on their (sometimes limited) interactions with you.

2. People expect you to behave a certain way, based on their impressions of you.

3. These expectations (often) aren't true representations of your personality. Or at least, they aren't complete representations of your personality.

So when you keep behaving the way people expect you to behave, doesn't your sense of self get eroded?

This and this give a rather good idea of what an identity crisis is. (Apparently it's quite normal for adolescents to be confused about their identity, so don't worry, Savvy. Hurhur.)

It suddenly occurred to me that I don't know exactly who I am, or why I'm doing the things I do. Perhaps it's due to an overdose of interaction with people; now I just want some alone time. The past few weeks have been one long stretch of worrying about people and trying to cheer people up and hoping that my actions don't affect others negatively.

There's no such thing as "supposed to be (a certain way)", okay? Everyone has many facets to their personality, and if you can't integrate them all, the least you could do is not to force him/her into your preconceived mould.

And, if you're reading this, don't take it personally.